Day 244 –

I came close to dying today.

I was sitting in my car in the ditch trying to comprehend what just happened. I knew I was okay but I grabbed my phone and I called you. I hung up before the call even connected. The second I realized what I was doing I hated myself for it. You didn’t care.

I found other people to help me through the blizzard of snow and panic, but I still texted you from the side of the highway. I could hardly see my phone screen and I was cold and scared and sad and I needed you.

You made sure I was ok. You made sure three year old was okay.

That was it.

Literally everyone else I talked to about it was more concerned with it than you were.

Someday I hope you won’t be a reflex.